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100th Post
Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Hmmm well this is now my 100th post and i am posting like... just a few days before my birthday! yay~

Anyways i haven't really been posting much because... well life is boring... its hard to find something to blog about when nothing much has been happening in your life... or maybe im just looking at it from a wrong perspective...

Hmmm well soon i will be a second year of Poly which is... great i guess... i mean we get to learn more stuff and all... but for this semesters i cant believe that my marks were totally different coz apparently i placed my assignment into some other folder... there are reasons for me to place it there OMG! apparently coz i handed up too early so there was no other folder to put it in.. sigh.. plus after appealing apparently the marks are still not changed WHY?! So slow... maybe the director tore up the letter or something lol...

Anyways other than that life has been... boring to say the least... first time i have ever wanted to have some kind of holiday homework (when i tot of doing work i actually thought i had gone mad) well for another part i did start up again on handicrafts... another bottle of stars plus i made a model aeroplane that i got from Korea, i had the use the glue they gave... which was irritating... seriously...

Well soon i'll go for a chalet that my mom booked for my birthday... ironically im celebrating my birthday on my mom's birthday... well she doesnt really like celebrating birthdays anyways... gave up on trying... A day where you celebrate when you were born eh? What about those people who didn't want to be born? As me for... I don't really care...

Hmmm well i hope the BBQ goes alright... Although im pretty sure something will go wrong.. as usual.. i am a jinx to these sort of things...

After such a long time... an update to my blog lol... well least its not dead haha... Been watching lots of animes and reading lots of mangas... Plus i feel like im getting allergic to games... i get a headache whenever i play for some reason... Lazy to update the anime list on my blog though... maybe just a little haha... Hmmmm, well my life is boring... Life is boring all in all i guess... i guess i should change my view on life?

Posted @ 4:48 AM

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KOREA
Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Ah yes yes, i shall now be typing this post starting from the middle of my second week in Korea, this shall be a super long post! so long that u probably won't even read all the way to the word cause its too darn long!! why do i want it to be long? o its coz i feel like it =D..

So then i shall start from the first day! ok so i went on a 6 hour plane ride... TIRING!!! but i didnt sleep the previous day so tat means that i could sleep as much as i wanted. thank god for singapore airlines and their inflight entertainment.. Was watching Indiana Jones haha... Ok so we landed and met up with Miss Yang and Mr Sean.. Miss Yang is like the... eh... actually im not exactly sure what she works as in the company... and Mr Sean is the CEO of the company.. and they led us to the car where we took a somewhat long ride from the airport to the hotel which we would be staying for the better part of the holiday... Hm.. well we finally reached the hotel.. we rested for like 10 mins and went down to have dinner... O right and korean time is 1 hour above singapore time... so it gets a little irritating (Im sleeping at 2 AM but its still 1 AM in singapore NOOOOOO)

Hm okie so second day! Lets see now what did we do for the second day... o right! it was my first day at the office! hmmm okie so i got stationed at some place which i am typing this right now! hmmm i realised tat their computers are actually somewhat low end.. and i dont know why... well i do know that their designers design stuff really well.. the short tour i got from Mr Henry (who is like the project supervisor type of person) showed me that makin' games is harder than i thought... and i already thought it was pretty hard... apparently concept art is needed for every single aspect of game design (o so that what the concept art was for haha) hmmm well then apparently i realised that there are two different types of programmers... one is the client side (all the character movements all programmed in) and the server side (all the servers...) hmmm and then there are actually planners that plan for the whole game and all (gosh i wanted to be a planner... ah well im a programmer now haha) hmmm, well after getting the tour of the company (which is pretty small) i went back to my desk to do watever i want... well its a pretty slack kinda thing... i actually didnt have much to do.. cept read about Gamebryo.. the engine that their using... but well i dont understand much coz... well i learn better with someone telling me wat to do and the damn booklet is full of complicated words haha... ah well... after that... it was dinner! and then stuff like that...

Hmm well after that would be well just a full week of about the same thing over and over... its like we went off to certain sightseeing locations, such as the Cheong.... something palace haha sorry the name just escapes me... well the palace was a pretty nice place to look at... it was old and all... and the tour guide didn't want to say stuff like "the king would go over to the queen's quarters to have sex since that was the mission of the queen" lol... coz there were kids! dun be a bad influence haha! hmmm well other than that the palace was just your basic sightseein' place... well i would have preferred if it was in spring.. the trees would look nicer... winter would be ok also.. coz its nice and cold... hm hm... after that we went shoppin'!! and then we went to watch this comedy marital art show called JUMP! well it was really funny and all... although sometimes i felt it was a little corny haha... maybe i watched this type of things too many times... but it was pretty funny hahaha... and they really can flip really high haha.. hmm okie so that was about it for the day... and gosh... them shops close pretty early... their close at 8 30 or so.. and its hard to get food...

Hmmm okie then the next day we went walkin' around... shopping... the usual u know? then we visit the Seoul tower... where we could see the whole of Seoul! it was the same u noe... that kinda thing where u go up to a really high place and it has a really nice view... well it of course had a different feel than all the other high places i've been to... would have felt better if it was open air though haha hmm hmmm... well tat was it for the rest of the day... apparently days pass really fast when in Korea... and i don't know why... hm hm...

Well on monday its back to the WORK DESK!!!! hmmm well the day passes as usual... and then Miss Yang.. Miss Sally and i went over to see the Starcraft Proleague... as in to see what its like and all... well apparently... i saw more girls than guys there... wow why couldnt the singaporean gaming scene be like that... apparently the gamers have their own fan club... full of girls... now tats evil lol... ah well... hmmm hmmm well it was pretty exciting haha... although it was in korean... gosh... i didnt understand a word they said... Hmm and then after tat we made a trip over to the Korean Internet Database Centre! o tat place was pretty interesting... now i know exactly how much it takes to actually like create an MMORPG... there were like SO many servers there... hmmm it was like a techno jungle yo yo... hmmm anyways it was pretty interestin'.... and thats the end of MONDAY!

And so now its tuesday!! well that was updating till now...... yay for long blog posts!!

MWAHAHHAHAHAHAH, so it actually took me awhile to get myself together to finish up this post, which is long! so then after monday work continued AS USUAL! yay!.. ok it was still actually quite boring due to the fact that i don't have anything to do, or maybe coz im too inexperienced and such... O and in korea i apparently have a new found taste for..... CAFE MOCHA... o.O...

Well the days go on... and on... until the END OF THE WEEK!!! where i got to like go home... so we finally pack up (alot of stuff to pack up o.O) and then we eat a farewell dinner and all (sashimi HMMMMMM yummy) and finally we take a 5 AM bus over to the airport where we take our flight..

Well coming back home is real fun and all... but in the next day.... its.... THE START OF SCHOOL HOLY CRAP...

well for one thing it has already been like 2 weeks since i went to korea... i am going back later on anyways... so i won't miss it so much... maybe the kimchi =D...

WELL THATS THE END OF MY LONG POST =D... too bad if the trip wasnt detailed enough... i suck at details!

Posted @ 9:42 AM

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

Been watching too many sad animes nowadays... All coz of them sad animes i feel like going EMO!!! omg!!! all the good endings (but not very happy endings) are so.... depressing!!!

Hmmmm i think i got back into anime addiction... again.... well tat kinda sucks lol... but heck my holidays are going to end soon anyways... im like going to go over to Korea to work... OMG 6 HOUR FLIGHT CAN KILL ANYONE I SWEAR.... humph.... well 10 days in Korea to work... really feels like... something bad is gonna happen though... course if i think like this usually nothing bad happens hahaha... Reverse man REVERSE!!! this is how i work things out mwahahahaha...

Well anyways been sleeping really "Early" nowadays... well... i still must say tat sleep is a giant waste of time... course i almost fell asleep at a great number of places though.. well its not my fault that i love to not sleep... Hmmm well nothing much... i just have nothing to do now thats why im even updating =D... God im bored.... Looks like next semester is going to be a real pain too... just looked at the timetable and it seemed like theres gonna be alot more work to do... well if i dont fail it would be great... if i do really well it would be better =D... Hehe... random ramblings yay....

Posted @ 6:14 AM

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Saturday, August 30, 2008

As if i would really care what you think...

As if i would really care what you say...

You demand respect and I shall give you none as you do not deserve any...

As if you haven't said enough...

As if you think that I should listen...

All your words are but lies that meant to deceive,

threats that are meant to destroy...

As if you think you are God...

As if you think you own me...

You are just nothing but a thorn at my side...

A thorn that should be cut off, smashed and finally left to rot in the deepest depths of Hell...

Posted @ 7:31 PM

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O.o
Thursday, August 07, 2008

Bro just shouted in his room...

I think its a sign for the bad things to come...

Or maybe im just paranoid....

Hmmmm well that sucks......

Hmmm got invited to some birthday / national day party at Angelia's house....

I guess i should go since shes kinda desperate to get people....

Should show support u noe?

Damn you Deon.....

Posted @ 9:23 PM

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Seriously
Monday, August 04, 2008

Seriously.. i havent blogged for like weeks!! so i shall now blog cause im under blogging which is not good. Anyways nothing much has happened in my life as of yet. In fact my blog is my place to scream out at the idiots in my lifes, things that are suppose to be logical are not logical because people just have different opinions on certain things... My brother for instance is a picky idiotic bossy person who cant take no for an answer and always fights back. Ya i seriously do not care if u want to come over and bash me up or scold me or whatever cause i seriously do not like you at all... Well another reason tat i havent blogged much was coz my bro has already breached my blog and is actually reading it like the bored person he is. What i cant say to his face i will say here even if it seems to make me into a coward or watever.

Ok so my friends come over and then my mom goes off to sleep somewhere else, one thing, its her choice to go to somewhere else and sleep when you can just stay at home and sleep. why are you so anti social? ALL and i mean ALL of my friends parents and siblings i can actually call as FRIENDS, i know them they know me, my parents however... just like disappear... only showing their outer shell, my brother is like... some weird person that just disappears. So this is where i get my "anti socialism" from... I mean refusing to go out of your room just because my friends are outside is kinda... LAME... seriously... o and i have to say it... cant you throw away your own rubbish? seriously... For another thing i am always standing in the neutral area for this family dispute or watever you want to call it, i am just minding my own business.. seriously i dont really care wats going to happen coz im already at a state where i simply hate the world and just want to jump off a building... I even tried to experiment one time, course i took too low a dosage to actually kill myself... although i tot it was high enough hmmm.. Some people may say that im like living a blessed life, but seriously i dont want this at all... if i was to be born again i seriously dont mind changing into a poorer family... And for the family thing... there are certain things that are logically possible and SIMPLE to do that would just solve well... EVERYTHING... but you dont want to do it due to insecurities... gosh... cant you just fix the problem ASAP? And my brother... may even be making things worse with some things he knows and some things that he doesnt know... What doesnt he know? i dont noe... but neither do i really care... so hes trying to bring this family back together eh? Well if u dont get to the root of the problem which is complete honesty then well i guess u cant do nuts now can u? this family runs on lying... so i guess its gonna be tough eh? And not EVERYTHING i do on the computer is playing games ok? My father just goes around saying i play games all day and what not, i DO NOT... its people like him that would FAIL in this course tat i am in... I HAVE TO BLOODY WORK... ITS CALLED WORK... YOU ONLY FUCKING SPEAK OUT WHEN I AM DOING SOMETHING BAD BUT NEVER WHEN IM DOING SOMETHING GOOD!!!! WHY????? ya ya everything im doing on the computer is playing... im playing C++, im playing with my DES project, im playing with maths.. amazing no? yup yup IM SICK OF PLAYING THIS GAME, THIS FUCKING GAME OF LIFE... So what if there are people worse than me out there? I. Am. Not. Them... i am another person.. a person that cant handle this much... so wat? you want me to handle more? well sorry i cant.. too bad, please try again later thank you.

Well.... ranting over... hmmm well poly life has been really tough, considering the amount of work i was doing... hmmm well C++ was actually much tougher than i thought... Maya has been pretty fun... well all in all my grades aint doing very well... but they have been somewhat good i guess.. Hmmm todays maths test was ok... even if i do fail it i will still be able to pass overall which is good... yes yes good...

Hmmm well the pass few days i have been spending alot.... which is not good lol... well i went out to watch a movie with WJ and Deon coz it was a day after Deon's birthday and we decided to celebrate it.. We went to watch the Mummy O.o... it was a.... how to say... well they shouldnt have changed the female lead... she felt too... fake... other than that i was a somewhat interesting show.. although i prefered the previous shows, after that we went to Popular where i bought them both some hand phone strap thing, i so wanted the Girl one but then they said having a girl phone strap with the name Kelgene or Kelly there would kinda give the wrong impression LOL... But it was cute... gosh... really cute... gosh... Well after that we went to eat then we all went home... Well for the pass 2 days i kinda slept REALLY "Early" at 8 AM and at 6 AM hahahaha... The sadness of actually bothering to study something...

Well then so if you want to come and lecture me on this i couldnt really care less... Cause i probably already know whats going to come out from you mouth... Yes you have scolded me enough for me to predict wat ur gonna say... or do... or watever... even if you do decide to like do some physical torture i dont really mind coz apparently violence or force is your way of doing things... i wont change that... Yea now when you try to act all nice and all it gets even more scary.. coz you dont do that... Your just short tempered. What to do? hahahaha... Im done regretting my actions, this is something that i just have to get out... And i did pass my "O" levels eventhough i was playing... and i did get through to my course... All your words of saying that i won't make it didnt come true...

Thats it... Forget it... Nothing is better than having nothing to do with the world...

Posted @ 7:38 PM

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ITS AN UPDATE!
Monday, July 07, 2008

ALRIGHT so im updating now in the middle of SCHOOL... OMG SCHOOL... ok so since i havent updated for like super duper long lets make a SUPER DUPER LONG POST!!!

Ok so recently i went and watched WANTED... it was like a super funny show, well actually show that u watch with WJ, Jeremy and Deon is bound to be changed into a comedy... no matter Action or Horror it will TRANSFORM TO COMEDY!!! especially when certain actors are acting... Lets not go into detail shall we?

but it was like a SUPER exaggerated movie... i mean a bullet can like fly i dunno how the heck far to shoot a guy in the head?? helloooo he was like sitting at home and shot the guy in his office?? WTF?!?!?! plus it had so much twists man... of course the best part was the keyboard.. tat keyboard part OWNED ALL... hehehe SLAM KEYBOARD TO FACE.. Well all in all it was a pretty fun movie to watch...

So.... 7/10 FTW!

next is... well i went over to MacRitchie resovoir for a 12 KM WALK!!! although it wasnt as advertised by the archery club so it became a 15KM WALK!!! with RUNNING... and.. UPHILL RACING.. and RAINING... with... RAIN RUNNING WALKING THING... OMG... it was a really really really irritating experience... but it was FUNNN... FUN FUN FUN... pretty fun... well actually now that its all over im aching in places i dun even noe the name of.. which is pretty sad... but who the heck cares!! i mean today i aint going for archery coz im aching... EVERYWHERE... OMG!!!

ok so thats the end of the update... i better finish up all my work b4 tml... tat is kinda y im skipping archery anyways... hehe

Posted @ 11:26 AM

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